Bad Luck Izel

Life is full of surprises! 

I never thought I’d be that girl going to a concert where they played “Jesus music.” In fact, I used to hate it. I thought it was super tacky. Seeing people raise their hands, close their eyes, and zone out kinda freaked me out. “Okaaay…” I thought. 

Christian music was stuck in a box labeled “Things I Just Don’t Do”. It just wasn’t me. That was for super “jesusy” people. You know, the people who take it to whole ‘nother level (ahhh how the times have changed). It slowly started creeping in on me after committing myself to saying yes. Yes to surrender, yes to vulnerability,  and yes to really living my faith. 

You lose so much when you close your mind to things, because GUYS WOW. Why would you not want to listen to music that is not only awesome but good for the soul!? I was missing out. But what counts is that I’m here now. 

I started by following some friends’ playlist on Spotify and then exploring different artists on my own once I heard songs I liked. And now to the present moment: I actually just went to my first Hillsong United concert and they were phenomenal. I started laughing during one of the songs because I was mentally watching myself. “You are really doing this. You’re that girl now”. And you know what? I have genuinely never been happier in my life. 

Because it’s so easy to just spit out your beliefs; but to really integrate them into every fiber of your heart, to feel forgiveness, grace, and how much you are truly loved deep in your bones, to begin to discover intimacy with Jesus, that is life’s greatest joy. So yeah, I’m the girl who sings to Jesus songs now, raising her hands and closing her eyes and doing all the swaying (and of course tonight I decided to wear the one dress that I can’t lift my arms in — and I tried. But once I heard the fabric ripping, I settled for the “I’m-not-that-comfortable-with-raising-my-hands-all-the-way-but-I’ll-give-it-a-try height”). 

But back to Hillsong United. On top of having some killer vocals and heart wrenching lyrics (yes there was a lot of tears) they had authenticity, passion, and drive. They spoke so beautifully about so many things: the purpose for music, justice, letting go of burdens we can easily leave at Jesus’ feet. If you ever have a chance to see them don’t miss the opportunity! So so so good. 

**(Their new album Wonder is out, go listen!)**

They are also partnering with World Vision to help alleviate the refugee crisis. You can choose to become a sponsor and send money that aids in lots of different ways. And it’s only $29. This part of the concert made my heart soar. THIS. This is what we have been commanded to do by Jesus: feed the poor, clothe the naked. We have a responsibility to them and personally this is what I’ve always found so beautiful: faith AND actions. True Christianity. 

Sure it may not save the world, but we cannot afford to NOT do anything brothers and sisters. I always feel very overwhelmed when I start to think about how torn and evil the world is. How much brokenness there is. “Where are you God? Look at this world. How can you allow this!?” And then I think of this quote by Saint Teresa of Avila, 

Christ has no body now but yours. No hands, no feet on earth but yours. Yours are the eyes through which he looks compassion on this world. Yours are the feet with which he walks to do good. Yours are the hands through which he blesses all the world. Yours are the hands, yours are the feet, yours are the eyes, you are his body. Christ has no body now on earth but yours.

Okay. Wow. Bam. That’s convicting. $29.00 guys. Next time, ask yourself if you really need that Grande iced carmel macciato (chances are you actually just need to get off your phone and go to bed early), or if you can maybe not eat out this Friday. Love is sacrifice. Be bold. Christ has no body now but yours. http://www.worldvision.org/hillsongunited

Okay getting off my soapbox now (and the comment about actually getting off my phone and going to bed at a decent hour is totally for me…. I caved in and got coffee today at the mall. Who am I anymore.) 

Moving on! Because I have the best luck in the world (heavy sarcasm) this night could not end without something happening to me. As I stood there singing my little heart out (sorry guy next to me, it’s hard to sing loud and still be on key) I kept thinking WOW MY HEART IS ON FIRE I NEED TO SHARE THIS I CAN’T WAIT TO GET BACK TO MY HOTEL SO I CAN PULL OUT MY LAPTOP AND BLOG THIS. 

Jesus to me: you thought. Through a most unfortunate series of events, we came to find that my laptop, along with some shopping bags, had been stolen either by the valet service or someone lurking at the parking garage. At first my heart sank. All my pictures. How am I gonna blog (lol at me). Dang that was expensive my dad is gonna kill me. 

We went back and filed a report but honestly I don’t see us getting our stuff back. Also, it doesn’t help that I’m leaving the country tomorrrow so by this point I was kind of just trying to see the silver linings and not cry about the super cute bra I had just gotten from Victoria’s Secret (you’re welcome stranger). 

I oddly was not even that angry. I think it helped that my roommate and her mom are the funniest people on this earth, this really helped alleviate my pain. (And if you don’t believe me you should watch my instagram live story, they are superstars & bring so much light into my life). I consoled myself with the fact that my screensaver was a quote by Mother Teresa and, hey maybe they needed a new laptop more than I did. Evangelization via theft; totally possible. 

“I leave you now with this prayer: That you will not be afraid; that you will see that life with Christ is a wonderful adventure. He alone can give full meaning to your life; He alone is the center of history.” – Pope John Paul II


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